Why Should I?!?

I need to keep these thoughts at the forefront.

Here is something you may or may not know about me.
If someone tells me to do something...I do the opposite.
If everyone else is doing something.....I'm prolly not.
If I something is "frowned upon"....I like it.

Getting a picture here?!?

Limiting my intake of food and drink in order to be the healthiest person I can be...because I should....is no different.
I like food, I REALLY like indulgent food and drink. I (apparently) have a lil bit of a relationship with food.
If you were to make a pie chart about me and food it would look something like this:
Jess wants to be healthy, fit, and thin- 5%
Jess wants to be happy with her body no matter what it looks like-10%
Jess wants to eat the same thing as her husband and other people around her and still be skinny-40%
Jess thinks soul food, desserts and adult beverages are very awesome-45%

It looks like this, because, I am unwilling (or something of the sort) to make the extreme commitment, put in the work, or posses the will power to do anything substantial about it.

I make small efforts, but they usually don't get far. In 2008 I lost about 20 pounds...but have since gained it all back. For my height I am considered slightly over weight.

So, in another attempt to get things back on track I need to keep track of the reasons I need to this and hope that it will turn into a want.

Notes to self:
You'll feel better in your clothes.
Your acid reflux will go away.
You'll feel confident in a bathing suit.
Running makes you happy.
You'll have more energy.
You might sleep better.

I know there are more things I want to add...but you know how that goes...stage fright, if you will....so as I think of them I will have a place to put them.

Until Then....

Off My Chest

It's four a.m.

I'm having trouble sleeping.

I have a lot on my mind.

I just watched the final episode of Sex and the City (for about the umpteenth time) it never gets old.

I'm thinking of taking classes and getting certified in Wedding and Event Planning. If you have had fun at one of my parties...HOLLA!

BIG is on TV now, who didn't love Tom Hanks in that movie?!?

The rain has arrived in "tucky".

I have a great compulsion to rip the carpet off of my stairs....wanna help?!?

Who eats a salad at 3:30 a.m.?? Apparently I do.

I used to want a TON of traffic on my blog. But, I have been considering the realities of that lately. I like my small community. I have to remember that I am walking the path that is meant for me.

Source

Why does it seem, as women, we are always trying to find the ever so elusive, delicate balance of all things in life.

Balance between being fit and having a great body and being able to eat what you want and not let working out consume you.

Balance between being all of the things you think others want you to be and staying true to who you really are without being labeled fake or bratty (the PC word for what I'd really like to type).

Balance between living your life as freely as possible and worrying that society might deem you as a "slacker".

Balance between wearing enough make-up so that you don't appear deceased and not wearing so much that you could pass for a 2 dolla....(shut yo mouf!)

Balance between moving forward without forgetting the memories that made you who you are.

Balance between spending and saving money.

Balance between figuring out who you have become without leaving behind who you were.

If I kept going we could be here the rest of the night (what little is left of it at this point).

Hopefully this will serve it's purpose.

Cathartic if you will.

That's the word of the day!

Until Then....